Today I wanna share something really personal as I know most of you guys can relate to it. It’s something long overdue, but then I thought the timing ain’t prolly perfect.
So last year September I was turning 21 and I believe that’s like everyone’s major birthday ooh and the 16th one. I tend to find that a bit overrated but then again I had a major bucket list since I was like 10 years old on things I should have accomplished by my 21st birthday. Trust me a lot of them were a bit cheesy, others very hilarious and some pretty serious. On Tuesday night, I was like “ooh crap tomorrow is 23rd and it’s my birthday” I fished out a couple of my diaries and journals (yes people I am a bit old school I do keep those) and went through my lists. I ticked some few things off the list, crossed some which I felt were kinda stupid and stared at the remaining which I hadn’t accomplished. Then I started reflecting on the past year(2015), which by the way wasn’t my best of years as I went through a couple of rough patches on my part. I remember telling my baby sister, “Imagine I am turning 21 tomorrow and I totally have nothing to show for it. It should be something exciting but I feel nothing near elated. In fact if anything I just feel disappointed in myself”.
We all need someone to make us feel like we ain’t alone in our problems
FYI, I rant and vent a lot when mad or depressed, so of course I went on and on and on about every single thing I should have done better. I went to sleep and in the morning found a note and card she has left me. It said ….”you say you haven’t accomplished much but you’ve had a great impact on my life… you’re kind, loving, caring, smart, FUNNY, confident and determined (I have exaggerated a bit), and ILYSFM. Happy 21st”. I didn’t know what ILYSFM means so I had to ask. If, by the way, you know what that means you should be in school preparing for your midterm exams, KCSE, IGCSE or whatever, because I think this post is a bit above your age limit. 😂 😂 I kid pun intended. As expected I went all aaww and let me spare you plain yawn-inducing details on how that day was.
Anyway, what I am trying to say is, at that instance, I realized that it should never be always about you. We should always live for a bigger cause, which is, positively impacting on those around you. Give someone a reason to smile even for a second. Everyone out here is battling with a different monster hyperbolically speaking and trust me we all need someone to make us feel like we ain’t alone in our problems insert a cheesy quote here about happiness. And always remember that God is always on top of the matter, and whatever plans he has for you, you can’t even imagine.
One last thing, CUT YOURSELF SOME SLACK!!
Hope I have been able to uplift someone. Let me know your thoughts.
Lots of love